....friendship

growing up while having bad memories about friendship had turn me into a girl who didn't believe in friendship for a long-enough time and i once had a hard time making friends when i entered college.

i used to think that "friendship" means talking behind each other's back when they're not around, about betrayal, about backstabbing, about being loser (for not admitting your own mistakes) and many others bad things.

FYI, i used to have bestfriends tho! but then something came up and we ended up didn't talked for some times.

it's been numerous times, people whom i called "bestfriends" leaves me, without any reasons. on the other day we laughed, we had chit-chat, on the next day we didn't talk at all, act like we're completely strangers. it happened since i was on elementary school until recently. i often thought "what the fuck is wrong with me? did i made mistake? did i hurt her?" *sigh*

but then, i re-joined the youth community on my church, and i met these mad girls. i don't have any ideas that we will be close. i thought i'll having a hard time again to make friends with them since they're all younger than me. you know what? it turns out different than what i've been thinking. we get along so well, we hangout often, we share stories, we're going crazy together, we cursed out loud, we didn't pretend to be someone else, we help each other.

having them now as my bestfriends, i just feel so grateful. because they're so different from what i used to think about "bestfriends". they didn't leave me because of what i'm saying or what i did, they accept me for who i am. they're just like another-siblings-from-different-parents for me now. i'm proud to have them as my bestfriends now.

meet my friends